Mission Accomplished I Wish

Here's something from the private journal I keep (the one I don't post online):

I feel a distinct lack of stimulation.

It doesn't feel like depression, or even boredom, necessarily. Today's a day off from the Diamond Mines, and I've made rather insignificant progress on a multitude of tasks I wanted to accomplish today, accomplishing only two or three things of any real significance.

I feel like Peter Gibbons from Office Space after winning a million dollars. Only, I don't have a million dollars. I feel distractable. I've spent the last, I'd say two hours in this coffee shop (in no particular order)...

• Reading another story in the latest issue of Pindeldyboz.
  
• Going through the ringworld, since E and I recently saw Ringu.
  
• Having a nap.
  
• Mentally going over how I would like my wedding vows (E and I are going to construct ours).
  
• Reviewing notes I made from The Filipino Martial Arts that focus on basic movements relating to attack and deflection.

Of these things, I'd say I only accomplished one thing. But, that brings to mind several questions. Was I really planning to have all of Pindeldyboz 4 read? Was I really planning to have my wedding vows drafted by the end of today? Was I going to finish outlining the whole of the Inosanto book? Not really. So, just what is it am I in a tizzy about? Why do I feel so dissatisfied? What would satisfy me?

Perhaps it's more accurate to say that I feel a distinct lack of focus.